Sunday, October 12, 2008

So when you run make sure you run, to something and not away from

I had thought about posting about how great things were going, in life and with the Prospective Boyfriend, and now I'm glad I didn't because he's not the Prospective Boyfriend anymore. He's just...nothing now. And I said it was fine and no big deal. And tried to make him feel better because he just kept apologising about it. I wish he had just been a dick about it, at least that I know how to handle. Yeah, I didn't put everything out there for him, but I am terrified of getting hurt. I went a little crazy after the last one and I don't mean like eat ice cream and cry crazy, I mean crazy crazy. I didn't need to hear him tell me I'm practically perfect and perhaps he's just commitment-phobic. Really, dude, just don't. Say it's because I don't put out or because I think the Big 12 is a better conference than the SEC (which it totally is), but don't tell me I"m really pretty and that you really like me, but you're just not "ready." And over the phone? I guess it beats an email and saves me from crying in front of you.

So, Mixtape Messiah, thanks for the Broken Hearted Sad Bastard Mix. I think I'm going to need it. And Tennessee. Anything else I can listen to to make me feel absolutely shit-tastic?

Later this week I'll post an "Everything You Need to Know About Carving Fake Pumpkins" since I'm obviously very weird and do it every year.

I'm off to cry again. I can't even call him a fucker, he was so nice about it.

3 clued in:

Mixtape Messiah said...

Aww, honey I'm sorry. I was hoping you wouldn't have to use that mix. Nice use of The Avett Brothers in the title. It's ok, baby. I think he might have been gay after I saw the pictures.

gingela5 said...

Ohhh I'm so sorry! I don't know what to tell you...I hope you realize that he is obviously doesn't know what he's missing out on. And who knows--maybe he IS gay. haha

Issas Crazy World said...

Oh I'm so sorry. Jerk. Doesn't know what he's missing. :)